THAT I DONT UNDERSTAND
I never knew what
it was to be magnanimous.
I never knew there was so much peculiarity in the world.
The future Id envisioned is nothing like the present.
Only now does it seem Im clear about what the future is.
I cant tell
if all the things Ive done were good or bad.
Past times fade and I cant recall the years.
The things I thought were simple I now cant understand at all.
I suddenly feel the world in front of my eyes is not where I really am.
For more than twenty
years it seems the only thing Ive learned is endurance.
No wonder all the women say Im not genuine.
I shake off the numbness and wake up from the dream.
But upon waking realize how quickly this world has changed.
In the distance
rows of tall buildings like fields of wheat.
In front of me oceans of people and traffic jams.
I take it all in from every direction but still cant grasp the size of it.
This thing and that thing - the more I see the stranger I feel.
Its not that
I dont understand.
Its just that the world is changing fast.